David: the auto-interview

It only came to me, after several months of contemplation, that the man who I had once admired and respected had thrown his whole life away by becoming a musician.

As I write this, my last hero, David St Bernard, is heavily focused on the third and final layer of a Rubix Cube. I’ve seen him solve it several times before. Yet, every time, he gets lost in its puzzle. He grunts and moans and sticks out his tongue with every right and wrong move. Why does he do it?

“I’ve always had a thing for puzzles,” David alphabetized. “They come out of nowhere, and then I’m suddenly engaged, and I can’t move on - even if it’s the same puzzle - until I’ve solved it. It’s pretty much the same thing with song-writing, except there’s more than six sides, and you’re never really sure if you want to make all the sides just one colour.”

Some of the greatest writers in the world were haunted by their works. David is okay. So I guess you can say that he’s a little spooked by his stuff. In August of 2008, he played soft ball with a few of his friends, and could not stop talking about his latest work-in-progress. Unfortunately, it was a sexual sort of song, and when the phrase “whole hog” came up, his audience tore him apart. Lesson learned, and he now keeps it to himself when his creative juices start dripping down his neck.

“I don’t go out often anymore,” David enunciated perfectly. “It took a while for me to realise this. I tried cutting out all of the atrocities of my life - booze, porn, facebook - and I still wasn’t satisfied. I looked at the list of things I still was wasting my precious life on, and at the top of the list, in big bold letters, I found ‘people’.”

The interview didn’t last much longer. He stopped talking, looked me in the eye, and left the room with my Rubix Cube.

Why do kids ever want to become musicians? It’s a shame that Mr. Ed Bruce decided to change the song to “Mamas, Don’t Let Your Babies Grow Up To Be Cowboys” instead of his intended original title of “Mamas, Don’t Let Your Babies Grow Up To Be Rock Stars”. As I can only imagine Ed had come to realize, the life of a musician is filled with turmoil and constant self-reflection and reinvention. So often lost in thought and prose, you lose the chance to actually live life.

The truth of the matter is that David has become a better song-writer. His last pieces are whole and inspiring and make me want to be a better person in general. However, will that keep up? If he separates himself from society, how can he speak to the people with whom he’s trying to connect?

In any case, David St Bernard is not someone whom you should try to get any valuable answers from. I came with my questions at the ready, and made both of the answers weigh more than they’re worth. I hope you like his music, because he’s got nothing else to offer, really….