Archive for December, 2013

Post #183: Mind-maps

Saturday, December 14th, 2013

Dear Alice,

I think I need you again. The empty void of the internet doesn’t do it for me anymore. I’m in my yearly state of mild panic, where I recognize that I’m not where I want to be, I’m doing things to move forward, but I’m not always sure that I’m moving towards something better, and it’s just something different. How’s that for a vague response?

Let’s try again.

I love progress, and I expect to be constantly improving at everything in everything always. I’ve constantly got three things in my head: Careers, hobbies, and relationships. The problem is that when I’m unhappy in any of them, I want something to change NOW. Unfortunately, these things are big things! They take time to change! And usually, they required more thought and forsight than I first invested in the solution.

I’m almost at a point where can I recognize this and not whine about it. Almost. I can make a plan, I can execute a plan, but I still get flustered when Plan A fails, and now I’ve got to quickly come up with a plan B. The other issue is when I stall, and I’ve got plan A1, plan A(I), and plan A-alpha all on the table at the same time.

I’ve learned/discovered/developed a technique for putting all my thoughts on a subject in one place, so that I can connect the dots and settle on action points. I’m calling it a mind-map, but I bet there’s some crazy jargonical word out there for it already, and I bet I’m not the first one to come up with it… but I’m pretty happy with it. I first did one with WHAT THE HECK AM I TRYING TO DO WITH MY MUSIC??, and I’ve just done one with work and seen some good thoughts come out of it. I’ll report back if any good comes out of them!

Wish me luck!

David =B~)

Post #182: Just a December update

Saturday, December 7th, 2013

I started to work on my songs this morning, when I felt that I’m tired of working on my old songs, and the thoughts that I wanted to write about aren’t ready to turn into a song. At least, not in my opinion. I like to write songs that, if someone were to challenge me on why I wrote it, I could at least defend the contents.

I hope to someday write another Stay Home, since I’m tired of writing from a cynical headspace. I see flashes of it here and there, and it’s making me feel like I’m finally seeing the blind spots in my previous mindset, but it’s still just a haze.

Once the dust settles on Tell Me You Love Me, I should be in a good spot.